Michelle Rodriguez jealous Paul Walker died first

Michelle Rodriguez revealed Paul Walker was very precious to her.

Michelle Rodriguez has opened up about the sudden death of her Fast & Furious co-star Paul Walker. The 37-year-old actress revealed Walker was very precious to her.

In a documentary The Reality of Truth, Rodriguez admitted she had tough time moving on in her life after Walker's death. He died on 30 November 2013, while returning from a charity event when a Porsche driven by his friend Roger Rodas spun out of control and smashed into a tree before bursting into flames.

She said: "I have to say, you know, when I lost Paul, I went through about a year of just being an animal. Like, what could I do, physically, to just get my mind off of existentialism?"

"Get my mind off of how transient life is and how we come here and can just disappear at any moment. How could I get my mind off that? I did everything I could possibly do to hide from myself and I'll tell you that my Ayahuasca trip made me sad that he left me here. It wasn't a sadness that he's gone, it's more like a jealousy that he's there first," Rodriguez added.

"I actually went on a bit of a binge. I went crazy a little bit .... I went pretty crazy. A lot of the stuff I did last year I would never do had I been in my right mind. I felt like nothing I could do could make me feel alive, so I just kept pushing myself harder and harder. I was travelling and I was having sex. And I was just trying to ignore everything that I was feeling," she continued.